x-ray my heart and mind, you'll find all this.

im sorry if i ramble and go on and on or dont make sense.
this just interests me.
its exciting.


my english class/ bible study had been mentioning that we've got to hunger and thirst after righteousness. i have a tendancy to read bible commands and subconciously shrug them off.

you know, this whole deal is really rather ironic....

I finally start to DO something about it. and so by DO something about it i mean, im actually spiritually hungry. as to say that i recogenize how much i need God. and i genuinely want him.
not only have i realized this,
but in the past day or two Ive had more interest in my faith.
im not saying that it bored me before but.....
well, you get the idea. it also seems a bit more real. more interesting. i care more than i did before.


theres two relient k songs that have been kinda going through my head.

everyone doubts....so on that note im gonna point out that while these songs aren't going to be my theme song 100% of the time....they can still be there to remind me.

song #1: I need you.

"I've dug up miles and miles of sand
Searching for something I can't see
And I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand new void inside of me
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need"


and then theres "getting into you."

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for god
Somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me unsure of these
Things I ask myself
I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

Im getting into you
Because you got to me
In a way words cant describe
Im getting into you
Because Ive got to be
Youre essential to survive
Im going to love you with my life

(contrary to popular beleif)

I think so much.

if thoughts were water drops i could drown.


spin spin spin goes my head.
la la la.
there's so much in life.


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today is gone. today was fun.
tomorrow is another one.

sarcasm^?
good question. not too sure, myself.

oh, the great esoteric-ness of it all.

"Pickled Idiots: just $2.99 at your local supermarket !"

"it's okay i've done stranger things with myyyy =X"

"the only part i remember from it was...actually nevermind. cant say it because I'm a good girl."

and that last part ^^ goes for all the other things i remember ( and could possibly be mentioned) from the past couple days.

woo.