thank you.

as you are aware of, im sure, i'm now home.
home from my favorite place...chop point camp.
this post very well could have been a writen picture (if that makes any sense) of myself moping around, so bored my brain is oozing out, and so lonely...well...nevermind....my point being - thats how this blog could have been. but im going to try to make it not like that.
( wow, excuse my ridiculously good grammar.)

and how will i accomplish doing so?
how will i manage not moping around like a walking sadface?
(refrain from mental images please, youre gonna miss the point.)
well the issue isnt "gah im home with no shedule, nothing to do, none of my friends are near me at all...and im sitting debating weather or not to call them up just to say hi..."
thats not the issue.
the issue is this...i just had an INSANELY great 4 weeks with great people doing great things. scratch that last part....doing things doesnt matter...just so long as youre with said great people. and said great 4 weeks makes being with those people that much better.
im so darn thankful for all the times that turned into memories.
all the random people who turned into friends.
the friends that turned into better friends.
as i said at the campfire...
camp is a necessity...
theres pretty much food, water, and chop point.
without it thered be a ginormous gap in my year.

that being said...
im home now.
doing what i can to be thankful.
but i still miss you all.
and i miss the things we did.


body-painiting w. courtney. sailing w/ emma and jagoe. windsurfage (which seemed to always be more like hopping onto each others boards when the wind was low.)
knee-boarding. stepping on that frikkin bee.
learning german from nikolaus and lukas.
the massive mountain of inside jokes i wont even begin to quote.
everyone robbing me of my camera all the time.
making fun of the foreign kid's various accents.(in a completely loving way.)
pixie stix.
being juno.
reid state park.
taking everything the dirty way.
"im gonna cut your throat and use your blood on my pancakes!"
THE TREE.
and many ka jillions more little thingies which decided not to come to my attention just now but are probably somewhat important, i suppose.

THAT was easy.

june 4 - june 10th = a loverly little experience called student project.
(a week long campaign helping out mr.dean scontras who ran for congress.)

now If i described to you the things we filled up our time with during student project you might think something along the lines of "wow, that sounds like a load of fun......NAWT."
but,see, we would only feel that way about all the work we did during SP if we were doing it for ourselves.
for our own pleasure....amusement....etc.
and you wouldn't think things like that if you were doing it for someone other than yourself. someone bigger and better and stronger.
and we had prayed that we'd do all our work for God.
i don't know about everyone else but i know that i did.
because everytime i think about SP i think abotu an amazing time that i miss. clearly, if i were doing all that work for myself, i WOULDN'T miss it whatsoever. I'd be like "wow that was hard and tiring and just blaaaaa."
so, i guess, now ive experienced the difference between how you feel when you accomplish stuff for yourself and when you accomplish it for God.

(btw, i am NOT saying that when you do things for God its NOT hard and tiring. beleive me, student project was tiring.=p
but it was great fo sho.)

another pretty nifty thing is....
no matter what happened it was a win-win situation.
if scontras lost, which he did, you can still know that your work wasnt in vain and you did your very best (still going along with the whole do-it-for-God thing.)
and if he wins....than GREAT. our candidate won AND we tried our best.

i wont go off about summers winning.
cause like i said, this is indeed a win-win situation, so to speak.
so "winners" shouldnt complain.
if you follow me ...?

but anyhow...

here's a link to an album of pictures from the campaign.
dude, how the heck do you spell campaign anyway...?
whatever.
heres the thingy:

http://picasaweb.google.com/sporkly/StudentProject08ScontrasForCongress

I miss all you sp peoples.

sincerely,
me.
=)

change

whoa. whoa. whoa.
I have to distort my brain into a weird position to grasp this.
okay, lemme backup....


I have been homeschooled since I started school.

this spring my parents decided I need more structure and motivation and challange in my schooling.

I decided that I agree fully.

they decided that I'd either end up in a more sructured homeschool program or a certain private school that is about 10 minutes away.

as of about 20 minutes ago.....I will not be homeschooled next year.

x-ray my heart and mind, you'll find all this.

im sorry if i ramble and go on and on or dont make sense.
this just interests me.
its exciting.


my english class/ bible study had been mentioning that we've got to hunger and thirst after righteousness. i have a tendancy to read bible commands and subconciously shrug them off.

you know, this whole deal is really rather ironic....

I finally start to DO something about it. and so by DO something about it i mean, im actually spiritually hungry. as to say that i recogenize how much i need God. and i genuinely want him.
not only have i realized this,
but in the past day or two Ive had more interest in my faith.
im not saying that it bored me before but.....
well, you get the idea. it also seems a bit more real. more interesting. i care more than i did before.


theres two relient k songs that have been kinda going through my head.

everyone doubts....so on that note im gonna point out that while these songs aren't going to be my theme song 100% of the time....they can still be there to remind me.

song #1: I need you.

"I've dug up miles and miles of sand
Searching for something I can't see
And I've just got bruised and battered hands
And a brand new void inside of me
Complete with walls I did create
From all the earth that I've displaced
A mess that I have made from what
I've just let pile and pile up
I have not been abandoned, no I have not been
Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need"


and then theres "getting into you."

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for god
Somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me unsure of these
Things I ask myself
I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

Im getting into you
Because you got to me
In a way words cant describe
Im getting into you
Because Ive got to be
Youre essential to survive
Im going to love you with my life

(contrary to popular beleif)

I think so much.

if thoughts were water drops i could drown.


spin spin spin goes my head.
la la la.
there's so much in life.


______________


today is gone. today was fun.
tomorrow is another one.

sarcasm^?
good question. not too sure, myself.

oh, the great esoteric-ness of it all.

"Pickled Idiots: just $2.99 at your local supermarket !"

"it's okay i've done stranger things with myyyy =X"

"the only part i remember from it was...actually nevermind. cant say it because I'm a good girl."

and that last part ^^ goes for all the other things i remember ( and could possibly be mentioned) from the past couple days.

woo.

ben&jerry. school&vacation. blah&blahhh

-- Today is / was free cone day at ben&jerry's!
I kid you not.
but did i have a ride to civilization?
noooo. =(

the rest of vacation included such things as a movie, more ultimate frisbee, more playgrounds, sunshine, ice cream etc.
yeah good stuff right there.
you dont have to go the city or the beach or anything spiffy like that to have a good time.

but now unfortunetly vacation ended two days ago.
and Im starting to wonder how on earth I'll ever be able to deserve a summer.

I fail at motivation and productivity but succeed amazingly at procastination and the like.
oh well.

on a different note: this weekend should be fun. as I will be seeing some kids from teenpact. woooot.
and while we're being happy I'll bring up that I'm going to Pennsylvania and Virginia on may 13th for about a week.
(to see a friend who moved down there a handful of years ago. and to see my awesome brother who moved down zhere last year.)

and on a musical note. ( no pun intended , seriously)
let me just say that the following are/is amazing.
bayside.
family force 5.
the shins.
the beatles.
little peice of heaven - avenged sevenfold.
zombie - the cranberries.